And life goes on.....

I've been putting off writing this one since quite some time...
Everytime I see this or any other blog, I feel like writing something...but ultimately dont do so...coz I just cant get myself into writing this..
6th May, I got a call from Aps in the morning...asking me if I got to know the news...I was like what...she said about A.S...I said No...half expecting her to be pregnant or something like that...
and then she tells me..A.S passed away on 4th ee...
thats the most shocking news I've heard in my life time....how..when...why...just too many questions...too many visions...too many thoughts...
and finally we got to know the details...actually there aren't much..
she was fine...doing good..they were planning on getting a car during the weekend,moving into a new house next month, starting a family next year and things like any normal 25-30 year olds would do...
And then suddenly one night she comes home from office, has dinner, watches TV (yeah she was into TV serials bigtime) and then before going to bed goes to the rest room, but never comes back.
Doctors say it could be massive heart stroke (but why in a 26 year old lady with no tensions in life!!!), or extreme fits...(Is that really possible!!!) or something to do with blood clot in the brain...

Life is such a mess...so very unfair..
they've had some of their toughest times in life...convincing their parents..extended families...getting all of them to agree...and then finally get married...V & A.S the best couple we've ever known...why would anybody want to do this to them? Why take away something that they've just begun to enjoy and cherish...why give them something in the first place and take it away so rudely..so suddenly...but why...??

Images keep flashing across my mind...the times we spent togther, the songs we sang together, the stressfull times we had while she was admitted into the hospital during our college, the life after REC in Hyd, the fight we had..the only friend that I make a point to visit whenever I am in India..the only link I've got to my most treasured past...my college life..but why her....???

And then suddenly...the most toughest question hit me in my face...Why V...? Yeah agreed it was sudden.. she could have had a better life...but now she is no more...but V is alone here...with just a few years of memories to drag him along for the rest of his lifetime...how...?why...? will he ever be able to get back to normal...will he ever enjoy listening to a song and not remember her sweet voice...???If, afterall, I am not able to do that...can he...?? How come one incident in life shatters a person...reduces him to a sorry sight..why him...? why him??Life's so unfair..
What have they done to deserve this kind of treatment...? Is this fate...?Should it be so brutal...?

Now when I hear someone singing...laughing...having fun I am reminded suddenly of things that A.S cant do...things V might not be able to enjoy till maybe quite some time...
And what is it that keeps us going...? What have we done better to continue to live and enjoy life..?

Life simply goes on...even if it means it will be blown away like a candle suddenly one day...